So you wanna be a dog....

And more pet photos for your viewing pleasure....

One of those moments....

I had one of those difficult-have-to-be-strong-and-hold-in-the-tears-moments...

I had this little man (for some reason I find myself calling my patient's "my little man or my little lady" this week that I am sooo worried about.

He has this HORRIBLE tumor that is the size of at least a grapefruit in his colon and extending into his liver, abdominal wall, and small intestine. Ug. Not good. Not good. Not to mention, when he came to me he was very anemic and we had to transfuse him.

And it wasn't just the cancer that made me feel sad....

He is this simple, sweet little man from small-town Tejas. Probably very little education. He lost his job due to his trouble with his heart and now the cancer. His wife is in a wheelchair and couldn't even make it to their second appt with us. He is very worried about finances and is scared about his cancer and coming into such a big hospital in such a big city.

Then we tell him we can't do surgery. His tumor is too big and too extensive. He needs chemo and radiation. He needs to find a way to temporarily move to the Houston area to probably get several weeks of daily chemoradiation treatment. He has little money. He has pets. He has a home. His wife uses a cane and a wheelchair. He is sick, anxious, and scared.

After these weeks of treatment, then we might be able to do surgery if his tumor responds....


This is what I do everyday.

For some reason, this one hit me hard this week.

Go Dynamo!!!!

I'm here...

Just been unmotivated, too busy, too tired, or too lazy to post.

Still workin hard. Enjoying my job more and more everyday. It's very challenging and stressful at times, but I'm enjoying it.

House is still on the market. :( And we are soooo ready to move on... ug.

My weekends for the past month have been crazy-busy, but good and fun!

Maybe this weekend I'll do more of an update post. MAYBE....

How y'all doin?

Idol what?

Are Hubby & I the only ones on this planet who DO NOT watch American Idol or some other Idol.

Just curious.....

Go Spurs!!!

Anywho....

Wow! Life has been crazy, busy, and fun here and there. House on the market, house stuffs, work stuffs, travel to Oregon for a wedding, a Texaconsin was in town with her hubby & we got skilled on cycling, Alli turned another year OLDER (ug), a fancy-shmancy work dinner coming up, another wedding, Memorial Day, possible trip to San Antonio.....

Phew!!! I need a vacation. ;)

This is why I don't blog much anymore. Too tired & busy!!!!!!

I'll try to post some recent pics soon. I know you all miss my mug, doncha? ;p

Overheard at the Water Cooler

Nurse: calling out to waiting room in a timid voice. "Shady Nasty? Is there a Shady Nasty?"

No answer.

Nurse: a little bit of a louder voice "Um, is there a Shady Nasty? Shady Nasty?"

No answer, again.

Nurse again: Louder voice "SHADY NASTY? S-H-A-D-Y-N-A-S-T-Y."

LARGE female patient: "Oh no you di-int just mis-PRO-nounce my name. My name is pronounced Sha' Dynasty. With the comma on the top." (she means apostrophe...but calls it the comma on the top....)

So.... Of course we all cracked up with this story and are now saying... Sha'Dynasty with the comma on the top!

People are so silly sometimes...



This is a story about a nurse and a patient not from my place of work.

So Out of IT

Dude, I am so not with IT this days. By IT, I mean fashion. It's funny how one's priorities change depending on what is going on in life. All I think about these days is hubby, work, and homes stuffs. There doesn't seem like much room for much else. I TRY to squeeze my family & friends in as much as I can.

Anywho, so I was chatting with one of the new PAs that was hired a month or so after me today. We were talking about undergrad, etc, and fashion & shopping came up. Shopping for clothes? What is this? WOW. I haven't bought any new clothes in MONTHS! That is a longggg time for me. But even when I do, I stick to very few stores these days and usually things have to be on sale. Dept stores, The Gap, Express, Banana Republic, New York & Co. That's about the extent & then I get bored. Anywho, I haven't been in months, like I said...I find myself wearing scrubs a lot these days except on my clinic days (2 days a week). I have given up on my hair (hating it soooo much right now, but trying to give it a major chemical break). Anywho, back to clothes.....so this chickie was talking about these and that jeans and this and that brand.....I had no idea what she was talking about. Never had heard of them. I am so out of it with fashion these days. I just don't really care. I just want to be comfortable and try to at least look cute. When did I stop caring???? I guess being so busy has gotten in the way.

But I still hate my hair.

I think I need a makeover something fierce. So feel free to nominate me!!!

(oh, but I still have my Coach addiction....that will prob never die....bring on the Coach!!!!)

I made it almost a year, I think....

...without getting sick (minus the food poisoning that almost killed me in Maui).

It has helped not being in Family Medicine clinics. Most of my patients are ill with cancer(s), but are not usually come in contagious. So, I have been able to stay fairly healthy since my clinical rotations ended last year when I was still in PA school.

BUT...BUT.... ug

I am home today ill. I guess all the non-stop work & home schtuffs has caught up to me. I have the plague (as Hubby would say). I am feverish, exhausted, sore throat, watery eyes, exhausted some more....prickly...hot & cold...ug. See! I do have the plague. Ok. Not really. No need for anyone to start chanting, "Bring out your dead!" points to anyone who knows that quote (family isn't allowed to answer this one!)

So, I am not completely work free. I have answered a few work emails. Awww...the joys of having a Cranberry (aka Blackberry). I am tied to my email/pager. THANKFULLY the pager has been silent today. Knock on wood! Also, thankfully my doc is back in town (he was out most of last week.)

Anyway.....

I know some of you are curious about the home showing that occured yesterday. Well, Hubby got a call from OUR realtor this am. She said it went very well & the couple is highly interested. Hopefully I am not jinxing it by blogging about it. I am also trying to not get too excited about it, but it is hard not to. She is going to help them get pre-qualified for it. Not a bad sign, eh? EEEE!!! See, I am having a hard time containing myself. Man, that was just the FIRST showing so far!!! They all said it showed "beautifully" and again the realtor said it is "staged perfectly." EEE!!!!

Ok. Calm Alli. Ya can't get too excited.....

So, we are still considering all of our options in regards to a home we will buy (new vs. used). However, we are leaning towards building one.

We really think this one looks so pretty..... It is a new plan, so no actual pictures available yet.

Ok. Back to resting. soooo tired.

Chomp!

We've got our first bite!!!

I mean tomorrow we'll get bitten...

Keep your fingers & toes crossed for us!!!!!

EEEEE!!!

We've got to find a better way...

I am sure some of you have already heard about the problems with biofuel.....

We definitely need to keep researching and find a better solution to our fuel problems....

The Ethanol Boondoggle

Burning Money & Fuel